Unrecognizable

2020 has been pretty shitty, for a bunch of reasons. Rona is the most obvious, but also, deaths, loss of jobs, depression….just a lot of heavy stuff. In the midst of this uncertain time I have found a part of myself i don’t know or even recognize. She is a little more emotional, a little more focused, a little less prescriptive, and a lot more open to saying yes to things.

I have found her in a few places. In my head was the place that most shocked me. She is nicer than usual to me, and more forgiving.

I found her in my responses to my husband. She is more patient and kinder with her words.

I found her in her willingness to say yes to things and projects she never would have in the past. She is more open and willing to take a chance.

I found her in her quickness to let things go. She doesn’t want to hold onto things that don’t serve her. She doesn’t have the time or the energy.

I found her in my quiet moments when I thought nobody was paying attention. She was! She was listening, taking notes, remembering moments and creating space.

She is me. She is growth. She is love. She is here to stay.

Author: Randi