Fat

Yo, for the bulk of my life I have been an athlete, athletic person. I ran competitive track from the time that I was 6 years old until I was 23. I was captain of every team I was ever on, at some point and I even coached collegiate track for a while.

After I stopped competing I had a love hate relationship with my body. Meaning, i was never over weight, but I could have stood to lose a few pounds here and there. After being an athlete for so long, who wanted to diet or workout?? NOT ME! who’s fault is that? My body or mine…or are we one and the same? I suppose an argument could be made for both.

In any event, my weight has always fluctuated, but not so far that a little modified eating and some make-shift work outs couldn’t cure. For the most part, I could live with what was in the mirror… Could I have done more, absolutely, would I have, probably not.

Fast forward to today. After having a bay my body is all kinds of messed up. Ya’ll, it’s official, I’m fat, and my lack luster gusto for exercise and healthy eating has got to change. I am so motivated and unmotivated at the same time. It’s like, I KNOW i need to do something to jump start this weight loss, but the thought of all that has to go into that, while chasing after an 8 month old and trying to drum up business for my freelancing gig AND being a wife and all the other things that slip through of the cracks, sounds so freaking daunting.

BUT…it is time. I am so uncomfortable in this body and I really need a change. So I am starting a cleanse today. 30 days. Needless to say, look for another post in about a month to see if this fa is on its way out the door.

Author: Randi